In my life music is a way that I feel God speaking to me. It is my comfort and my release. The other night I was spending some time in worship listening to music and a song came on that captured how I felt. Sometimes music puts my emotions into words in a way that I have yet to be able to express out loud. The song was “First” by Lauren Daigle. If you’re not familiar with the song I’ll share some of it with you.
“Before I bring my need
I will bring my heart
Before I lift my cares
I will lift my arms
I wanna know You
I wanna find You
In every season
In every moment
Before I bring my need
I will bring my heart
And seek You”.
The words of this song opened my eyes to what I have been experiencing the Lord teaching me though the last few months. I have been going through some changes since accepting the opportunity to go on the World Race 11n11. I have been praying and asking God to show me what I need to be doing and this song revealed to me what God has been trying to tell me. I need to seek Him. I have allowed myself to get consumed with the world moving around me and trying to react. When what I need to be doing is seeking God and everything else will fall into place.
So understanding this, lead me to scripture, Deuteronomy 4:29 reads
29 But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.
Having this scripture just reaffirms what I already knew in my heart. I need to seek God and not allow the world to cloud my judgement. I need to do this during this time of uncertainty with the global pandemic and also as I prepare for the World Race.
In the past I have allowed myself to get a little lost in the world and I think if we are all honest it is something that can happen to all of us. Life is difficult and it is unpredictable. Having a foundation in Christ is always something I can find peace and rest in, especially now. Remembering to seek God first is important as a believer. Occasionally in times of crisis we forget that.
God has reminded me in this time that He is still here. He is still holding on to me. He has the whole world in His hands and nothing that is happening is coming as a surprise to Him. Which just helps me be that much more prone to lean on Him and rejoice in the fact that He is in control. I don’t know what the future holds, I know the plans that I have. I also understand that my plans are subject to change according to God’s plans for me. Recently in the last year or so I have found peace in God’s plans for me.
